Now That I'm Still Here
Christopher Carazas, πππ ππ§ππ©ππ¨ ππͺπππ© ππ€π§π§π€π§βEssays about what happens after survival stops being the full-time job. Grief, neurodivergence, belonging, dark humor, and one German Shepherd who considers herself management.
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THE HORROR FEUD, PART III: SOME THINGS SHOULD REMAIN BURIED
PROLOGUE: THE THIRD WARNING
Some things should remain buried. Unfortunately, neither KaZ nor I has demonstrated much respect for that principle.
There is an old rule in horror stories: when something terrible happens, the sensible pers...
Lines Composed Upon the Treason of the Hindquarters, With Additional Remarks Concerning Rabbits
A fourteen-year-old German Shepherd rejects the word senior as her legs slow down. A funny, tender essay about aging dogs, trust, and the love between us.
PROLOGUE
The Myth of Being Needed
Prologue: The phone stopped ringing. The mortgage didnβt.
The first thing I noticed after losing my job was how little my phone needed me.
For years, that little rectangle had been an exceptionally efficient delivery system for other...
The Stove Was Off
Prologue: I Answered the Question
We had just walked into the Big Y in Kingston when I became certain I had left the stove on. It was January 2025, and Marianne and I were trying to reconcile. I had left her in September of 2024. Now...
The Things I Agreed To
Content note: This essay discusses psychological and physical abuse, ableism, coercive control, and the lasting effects of trauma.
Now That I'm Still Here is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, conside...
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Writer. Memoirist. Survivor. Still here, despite several strongly worded complaints from life.
TV,stage,print,music WRITER & ACTOR now: ATMOSPHERIC/QUIET HORROR writer. Micro/short/long/IP. Host: The Life Macabre. Starting November. βWhat if the door and window locks are to keep the outside world safe from what happens when you go to sleep?β Β©οΈ
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